I have to admit today I messed up and broke most of my new spending rules.
I got upset over the smallest thing that now is not even relevant.
Psst…If this is your first time at my blog please read this post first.
Unfortunately today I bought a pack of cigarettes. And an energy drink. And ate out for lunch.
The only one of my desired new spending habits that I kept was that I did not go out for dinner. Even that was probably only because I felt too bad for going back on my commitments earlier today.
This has happened to me before when trying to stop smoking. When trying to quit you will be more irritable and pick fights with others so that you can get upset and cope with that frustration by smoking.
I think it is normal to have cravings or urges when trying to change a negative behavior.
I believe it is the addict inside you trying to find a way or excuse to continue in the behavior you are addicted to.
The worst part is that it had been a few days since I smoked any cigarettes or drank any energy drinks. Now I have to go through the 1st day again which is usually the hardest for me.
I feel bad about my spending today but I am still committed to kicking these habits. Tomorrow is a new day and I will start over again.
I will not give up just because I messed up.